6 Months, 7 Days

Last week at my 6-month post surgery mark I spent it at the doctors office receiving treatment from a very uncomfortable and painful allergic reaction I had to an over-the-counter arthritis cream. I thought about posting, but was honestly too exhausted and miserable.

I tend to ramble, so my goal today is to keep this short. I'm in a lot of pain these days. Fell last Sunday at a Home Depot thanks to a pothole in the street that I completely did not notice (hence the cream I tried on my knees and ankles), which surprisingly didn't do much damage - thankfully. I'm having carpal tunnel surgery on my right hand on Wednesday, July 15. Will probably have the left one done a month or two after that, just depends on my work schedule. It is a very simple procedure compared to everything else I'm used to, so it's really nothing I'm worried about.

I'm compiling a list of diseases that people think I have and am slowly trying to rule them out one by one. I'm still in the mode where I just don't want to spend my time with doctors or tests. I'm trying to "move on" despite everything. I just keep working, keep trying to live as much of a "normal" life as possible, though I know it's far from normal. So I will slowly but surely make my way from doctor to doctor, and will let everyone know if something actually comes up. I'm not holding my breath.

My spine is doing great, though it appears every time we have a weather change it can get aggravated. Yesterday was a pretty bad pain day, and last night was horrible. Every night is bad, but when nothing you take helps, that's when it becomes horrible.

I knew going into the surgery it might not cure everything, and it obviously hasn't. I also knew that I had to move on no matter what the outcome, so that's what I'm doing. I hope people don't take it as giving up...I just need to stop delaying what I want to do in life, thinking that I'll do it "when I'm better." The bottom line is, there may not be a "when I'm better." So I'm slowly learning to live with what I have, and at the same time keeping my eyes and ears open for anything that may help improve my life. I don't wish to be this way, but will understand if it's meant to be this way. Not everything in our lives can be the way we want it. In the meantime you just have to live life with what God gives you and be grateful for it.